For some strange reason I feel like Stevie Wonder today ” I just called to say… I love you.”
I woke up feeling grateful so I thought I would leave this message. Maybe you will recognize yourself through my words or find inspiration for your own?
Well, I just want to say thank you for everything I went through in the past and everything I still go through emotionally. I never had an easy life and I always seem to attract the wrong kind of people around me who wouldn’t care hurting me either openly or in my back. Then they just disappear. Two things I realize today :
1. During all those years, I was out of alignment. I was not in touch with myself therefore anyone I came in contact with was out of whack. I allowed so many people to shit on me. I was insecure with my identity. I surrounded myself with people with bigger insecurities. But at the time I would have never notice since I was so deep in my own insecurity. My life gave me so much anxiety to deal with… I’m alright tho. Maybe I asked for it? Who knows. Well, baby steps now.
2. It all serves a huge purpose in my growth and my personal development. It was necessary to wake me the fuck up. Well, I’m awake, thank you. Their loss now. I found my value.
I’m grateful to be alive, stronger, more loving, more caring, more supporting, more aware. I am so much more than I was and I keep becoming so much more… I like to believe I have my biological mother’s heart. Even tho I never got to experience her.
Anyways, I’m making a conscious choice to put all the pain that I feel to good use. I don’t want to become just another dysfunctional face lost in the crowd. I create function because we don’t need more dysfunction. I choose to embrace my flaws and my uniqueness.
For the first time in my life I feel alive. Being sensitive and emotional is a blessing. I dream with my eyes opened. I choose to become the things that I see, unapologetic. I choose to become who I am. Who I believe I was supposed to be. I choose me entirely so now I can choose you more clearly. Ain’t nobody can take a decision for me because nobody can wear my shoes. Well, if someone can wear your shoes, the other question is, can they wear them like you?
What do you want to do with how you feel? How do you choose to harness the power of your emotions and feelings? Power is neither good or bad. What you choose to do with yours decides the fate. If you are broken like me, a lot of people can use your broken pieces to stitch up theirs. Don’t keep your pieces just for yourself. If you can’t fix yourself right now, spread your pieces across the energy field and watch them come back a whole, bigger and brighter.
In other words, if you feel sad, try to make someone smile instead of making them cry for a change. If you are angry, instead of breaking stuff, why don’t you use your energy to run a mile, paint something, play music or repair something around the house.
If you have a story to tell, tell your story. If you don’t want to tell your story, use your story. I f you know better then be better and do better. Walk the talk… We have enough people who just talk.
Don’t walk around looking for heavy hearts if yours is already too heavy for you to carry. Become who you are, unapologetically.
I wish infinite love, health, healing, wealth, success, happiness, awareness, peace and wisdom upon your soul