It has never ever occurred to me that I was self-sabotaging my life and my relationships, until really late two years ago, when I started shifting frequency.
For a very long time I blamed my adoption. I blamed the slums I was born into. I blamed my culture. I blamed my biological mother for being so irresponsible. I blamed my aunt for not taking me in along with seven of her other children. I blamed my grandfather for dropping me at the orphanage. I blamed the family of low educated farmers who raised me.
I blamed the Government. I blamed the white man. I blame the black man. I blamed the yellow, green and blue men. Hell, I think I even blamed the cat down the road. Oh yeah I used to also blame the family dog for being so small and stupid. She would never play catch with me… or with anyone for that matter. She was the kind of dog who would look at you throwing the stick but never run after it or when she would decide to catch it, she would keep it for herself. It used to drive me nuts lol.
I was so bitter and angry… I thought the Universe owed me some. I used to walk with a chip on my shoulders. So you can only imagine with that kind of attitude how my life unfolded. But, deep down inside, underneath the tough coat I used to wear, I was slowly dying. I believed I was doomed. The beliefs I held kept me in low vibration for a very long time. I accepted to be treated unfairly so many times. I completely rejected myself. I was in a state of low consciousness and I was not self-aware which is the most terrible place where we can find ourselves.
Self-awareness is the cure. Consciousness. It is said that for the first years of our life, when we are kids all the way o our teenage-hood, our brain is in theta which is associated with hypnosis.
According to Neurosciences, most people will turn adults and never get out of hypnosis. Their brain will forever remain in theta waves. Those adults are easy to spot, in case you are interested. They are the individuals who live their lives like robots. They run programs. Mainly social programs. But this is for another blog post… Tomorrow I might make a post about brain waves and the different states of awareness, so stay tune.
With that being said, the beliefs and the thoughts we hold either keep us in Theta (hypnosis) or help us grow.
The beliefs we hold are responsible for the chemistry in our body. They are responsible for everything, from how we live to how we die.
This is not some kind of think positive post or maybe it is… Maybe all I’m trying to say is check your beliefs. It’s okay to question them.
I wish infinite love, health, healing, wealth, success, happiness, awareness, peace and wisdom upon your soul