My life feels like a big guilt trip. So I’m addressing feelings of guilt today to release the cog and free the mind. And maybe you will find value in this post too.
I feel guilty. I feel guilty for not being the daughter my adoptive mother wants me to be. And oh my god does she feed on that. It’s an open buffet.
I feel guilty for spending so much time working on my business and not socializing with ordinary people. I feel extra guilty especially when they want to socialize with me. I enjoy networking more than I actually like to spend time with my mother. I’m guilty.
I used to feel guilty for not being the big sister I felt I was supposed to be. But my little brother confirmed to me that he always saw me as a wonderful sister who took care of him when he was a toddler. So less guilt here. I guess I succeeded.
I used to feel guilty for not being the girlfriend my ex wanted me to be. I used to feel guilty for not being able to just get out and show our love to the world.
I feel guilty for not agreeing with some of my friends on their racial and political views.
I feel guilty when I’m not who people want me to be. I guess that makes me a bit of a people pleaser.
I feel guilty when I choose me over them. I feel guilty when I say no.
I feel guilty when I feel I’m disappointing someone.
I feel guilty when I speak my mind and lay down my feelings on paper.
Gosh I even feel guilty when I tell the truth.
I feel guilty for wanting to be me and working on becoming a better version of myself so that everyone can get a piece of me.
Fucking guilt drives me fucking nuts.
So much fucking guilt sometimes I don’t know what to do with it.
But then someone asked me a life changing question : “Do you think they feel guilty for making you feel guilty?”
Touché. So I guess what I’m trying to say is no matter what you do or who you become, someone will try to make you feel bad about it.
Some people are good at putting all their shit on others. They are very good at the blaming game. It’s you, not them. And if you were different things would be perfect… but from a more enlightened perspective, you and I both know that’s bullshit. Life is an inner experience and people have nothing to do with how we feel.
Live your life. Vibrate higher. Do you, boo. Don’t let them get to you.
There are people out there who will love you no matter what.
I’m definitely one of them.
Infinite love, health, healing, wealth, success, happiness, awareness, peace and wisdom your way