This post is somehow long and personal. I’m sharing a piece of me again today.
Yesterday while contemplating my thoughts, a question daunted on me : “How am I going to fix all my personal and emotional issues? I’ve been through so much.”
I don’t know what my biological parents look like and probably never will. I became addicted to drugs early on in high school. I was a very unstable and sad teenager.
I had a rough childhood with my adoptive mother; she put me in the foster care system at 15 years old.
My adoptive father was never around. He left when I was around 11 years old and told us that he never wanted to have children in the first place.
I struggled all the way through my mid 20’s to love and accept myself as a human being. Some of you know that I had a major breakdown and my immune system shutdown about 2 years ago. During that same time, I went through a nasty breakup.
Fast forward today, I realize there are so many things I wish I would have done differently. I wish I would have been wiser, stronger and emotionally more capable to live out my truth.
Although, I look confident in real life, my friend, I’m a walking trembling feather most of the time.
But then I realized… feathers can fly, can’t they? That’s why they’re so light. So if I’m trembling feather, why can’t I fly too? Because I gave in to the belief that I was broken for a long time.
I can’t fix the past, but I can fix my wings and learn how to fly in the present moment, one feather at a time.
I’m using the wind of love to accomplish that for there’s a lot of great healing that comes with love. Actually, it’s the greatest of all healing.
Love yourself. The past does not matter.
What matters is who you are right now.
A human being who can fly.